Fun match; fun day:D

Today's friendly match was so fun with all the camaderie(or whatever u spell it). Today Sengkang, Arion, Police, Young Women (Chris was from there remember), bowen + few more combine to play a match against u14. All the chit-chatting, laughing, playing with lots of ppl you never play with for a long while was so great. It was like one kinda big women soccer gathering.

But i think i had a bad day. Still remember last time i play u14, i was @ LB and all i did was pick up lose ball and spread my pass. So simple and think i had not a bad game. Today was at LM. OMG i was 'chuan' in like 10 mins in the 2nd half. 1st half i again was confused by ppl as i was called to replace gina so i see her; okay LM. Then the moment i step in, they shouted at me to go striker. Then i realise there's no one at LM so i went there in the end and stayed there in 2nd half. 2nd half was killer. I think i tried to dribble too much and never play passing game. End up killing myself within 10 mins trying to out-dribble with every touch. Then the ball end up going out of the line just about everytime as well... sigh.... So not exactly a good game from me i feel even though most of them said i did fine. I must really make sure i got good end product to all my touches. Like 1st half i got a golden chance to play a through pass but absolutely ruin it by looking up at sheau shyan's position at the very last moment just before i release the ball and according to her took my eyes off the ball as a result and ruin the pass.

Anyway, come to think of it, think jill's play got into me after she wear my shin pad. I really never did so much sprint-dribbles during a match in my entire life. Think her sprinting awesomeness got to me(still remember she can sprint so much during those sprint drills); i felt a bit faster than usual today. I might not be able to dribble past the ppl that much otherwise given my usual speed. Hmm... But i would not wanna dribble so much during a match ever again. So chuan and kinda show pony of it. I would wanna pass more.

And the ref talked to me after the match regarding the foul straight from 2nd half kick off which i won. She said it's a foul as its clatter of feets but she mentioned that it does looked like I dive... Hmm.... From my perspective, its we both reach ball together and the opponent has 2 feet on the ground while i'm more of on one foot as i was trying to push the ball past her. Then she managed to just touch the ball which unbalance me. kinda 50-50 actually.

And there's this police ang-moh. OMG her confidence is amazing. Was talking to her during half-time and can sense her confidence in her own abilities and the team to win as well. Make me feel so un-confident. She is she'll do well and we'll win. Me like i just try my best to do well, ball is round, anything can happen. And she is fast despite her age. She is old but can beat those kids...

And then there's a free kick we won due to handball. Charmaine lofted it kinda hard then ah zhen handball it. We all really started laughing esp me. But i immediately stopped laughing after seeing everyone around me stopped already while i'm still caught up in it. Then charmaine sub was very funny as well as we kinda tell her not to make ball go out as she'll be out otherwise. Then she just had not enough space to dribble past the opponent. Then we laughed and said "okay! Charmaine off!" Sth like that. She started laughing as she came off. Everyone on bench started laughing. I know i say not that funny but trust me its really funny over there.

My new boots bite me :( Kinda have slight blister but it could be much worst if not for me wearing heels kinda often due to presentations which kinda immune my heels from it already. But like i said earlier, never had chance to test out if my passing and stuff will improve as i never really did so. But i think through warm-up and stuff it feels okay. Hope it stays that way after it season as the feel and stuff would be completely different then...

zzzz zzzz zzzz

Catching up on my sleep feels great. Even though i hate the rain 'cos it prevent me from playing street soccer, the rain just gave me a even better sleep. Now the next step for me to catch up on everything outside school is to play as much soccer as possible. I don't wanna rely on street soccer to remain sharp anymore. Time to really get training and work towards forcing the next gear out of my play.

I bought my new pair of boots :D Its a lovely pair of red adiPure; the one that kaka wears. I was looking @ CTR 360 and Predator but in the end kinda limited to this but i like it:D Think it'll be the first time ever i get a kinda fitting pair of boots so will it work wonders? Well i won't turn an overnight sensation but i do hope it'll improve my play. I'm always known for wearing non-fitting boots due to my stubborness and my kinda weird feet which always irks coaches esp Coach Mike last time so i am looking forward to a new boot where i keep minumum air space; just my feet in the boots.

And oh ya, fifa street 2 on psp is not bad. Just i'm a PC person so not exactly that use to using the psp control which is controller actually. Now to get a few more games so that i won't only play 1 game.

These fews days have been kinda busy too. Have FT lesson on mon, SE presentation on tues, IT & biz innovations presentation to venture capitalist on wed, FT mock interview on thur. Everyday wear formal. Still remember my feet hurts from wearing those kind of shoes when the sem start but now battle-hardened already. Now i can fly with those shoes. hahaha. But am glad SE presentation went well which puts a good end to what all my teamates agree as a long module due to how far we have come to make things happen. Only team that session that prof say like the presentation and said stuff covered not bad on top of nice style. Wee.. But my FT mock interview i was kinda stammering during my 2nd question which is bad. Sigh... Wed one was really scary as it's real life ppl with money who's looking @ our idea and grading it but think it went okay.

Paper's next wed and thur evening. Jiayou!!!

Just glad the sem is over...

Woo hoo... This sem is over with my team finishing the task that is due Nov 15 2359. I am just glad this sem is over as it's really tough taking 5 IS mods together. Looking back, i think its a good thing that i am thrown into the deep end of project with issues to handle. I really learn a lot from my project this sem in terms of handling team. I think my teams also feel they've overcomed a lot to make things happen and come to this point of completion of project. I really feel going to at least 3x LTB module this sem. But do listen to what your seniors say like pls don't think abt doing SE with CAT, don't do CAT with all biz ppl etc. It's really true.

Now to do well in SE presentation on wed, FT interview on thur, (only) 2 exam papers, FT dining and than FREEDOM COMPLETE! Now it's 4/5.

Now to catch up on my sleep as i've been sleeping later than 2am than woke up at 6am everyday. And not forgetting my soccer debts. I have to find back my touches. I gym a bit but its meaningless given how much I snack on stuff like popcorn chicken to relieve stress. Even the auntie asked me "popcorn chicken? Ice lemon tea?" when i go there.

Birthday gathering with my cell mate and my SMU friends (glad my project mates came down esp my SE one who was working with me from morning 9am till before they came down even though most of the SMU ppl are still SMUWS ppl) at settlers was nice :D And its double joy as well as my mum was kinda happy she saved quite a lot of money due to the final moment blackout. hahaha.... The presents was absolutely lovely... Suddent influx of nike, adidas, jakcets, shoebags, water bottle but still all presents were nice. E.g. I had only 1 shoe bag as i left my other one at German School during the futsal thingy(sigh... now it brought back memories of how i thought Bernard seems so proud of it as he look at the 3rd place trophy) but guess what i received 2 so now i have 3 :D Time to match my bag with my clothes or sth. haha. Then i have matching shirt with jackets. Amazing chemistry between 2 independent group of people. Was having fun playing with the ball my mates gave and also nisa's balloon (very childish right?). Now to spent the ANGBAO money!!! Maybe i shall get a mikasa ball since i'm using my portion of the SPFC prize money(s) to get my new boots. But its not as though my adidas ball is in bad condition or i have so much time to fully use the new ball as it should cost at least $60 which is expensive for a ball as all the balls i bought so far are < $35. Or maybe i should just heck care abt saving that bit more and buy skins top? The tights i bought last time was good i admit. Hmm...

And as i am typing, i just received a PSP as present :D Still in state of shock...

And oh ya... I think i can now confirm that ... is indeed happening... Oh my...

Hello 1 day before my birthday :-D

Well... I am very busy with my projects and stuff but i'm a bit free so i guess i update a bit. First thing first; it doesn't feel good being poured a huge bucket of cold water. I am very excited abt sth today but then it got cancelled. Sigh... Just when i am so so looking forward to it.

I am pleasently surprised that Singapore would get a few panda from china on loan. Now that's a good reason to go zoo. But then again, it'll be 2012 before the public can view it. But it's still great news as i don't think panda like want to see can just go zoo and see.

And it's one day before my birthday. Well... I am more looking forward to my term ending THIS SUN than my birthday because it means i can catch up on my sleep and soccer debt; esp soccer debt. I am so upset that i couldn't kick ball these days. If i didn't play soccer with guys @ SAS that day and possibly last sun (thanks to undecisive me i didn't... sigh), i will have become a soccer noob by the time i resume any training be it for SPFC or SMU.

I should be happy about my birthday but i am kinda sad that i couldn't go watch Singapore vs Thailand as a result. I could've go watch Khairul Amri, Datsakorn thonglao and teeratep winothai play. Sigh... But i would still enjoy the party at settlers... Just that maybe my heart would kinda be at the national stadium.

Anyway.. i guess the ppl who're here most probably have received the invitation so ya hope to see your :-D Those who never recieve or haven't RSVP but can and wanna come this sat evening please inform me and i'll let you know more

And take a look at this...

I don't know what your feel... But i was talking to a guy recently and I remember he said that somehow girls tend to be more -don't know the appropriate word-. He mentioned how guys can go for blood on the field but still will shake hand at the end of the match but for girls things like not shaking hands and just simple unsporting behaviour do happen. Guys do brawl more yes but still sporting. I don't know what ur think but i was quite startled when he said it as i kinda think eh yes it is indeed happening.

God is Good all the time

If you remember i was whinning about how bad my sunday is

• Supposed to wake up at 8am but didn't set alarm clock thus woke up late at 9am
• Wanted to go and soak up the atmosphere or learn new freestyle tricks or get tips regarding the tricks i already can kinda do at Red Bull Street Style(the freestyle touny). Didn't in the end
• Could've played football with the guys. Didn't in the end
• Wanted to go watch the Singapore Cup final to support Coach Mike. Didn't in the end
• Supposed to watch Man Utd vs Chelsea. Couldn't in the end and currently stuck on soccernet gamecast for updates.

What a awful day with church the only saving grace...

But God works in miraculous ways and know my grumbles and make my monday great :D

• I only go for morning lesson and go home at 12 NN. So sick of staying in sch from early morning till late night
• Complete my bidding for my mods for next sem. Now i can laugh at ppl still bidding for next sem courses
• Received a wonderful out of this world news :D Will tell u more when the time is ripe. For now pls hope it'll be a wonderful experience for me
• Had a great nap in the afternoon after reaching home

Just too bad it rains otherwise i would've play street soccer. But a bit cracking my head over how to do my CAT presentation now.

Numb to sianz-ness

Think i am like so sianz abt school and everything related to it till i am numb to it already. Can u imagine... I have to rush my CAT project because WE HAVE TO SWITCH PROJECT SPONSOR?! I am supposed to do a spreadspeed model for a fruit stall but we have to drop it due to a number of reasons like 5 days before deadline. So was meeting my CAT mates everyday when I have time since thur; really every single possible second. Then SE project which is 55% of final grade will have User Acceptance Test on thur so rushing it too. PMSB also have to rush deadline. Search engine also deadline at same period. Come to think of it... All around same period. So it's been really draining till the pt where I am not contributing anymore. Haiz... Oh God pls help me. And i haven't even started writting my resume and cover letter for FT. And worst part is, i forgot how prof structure it... Thought i will remember but i'm wrong. So have to count on my memory for his alignment and stuff

Anyway, on a much more happier note; pls congrat me as i got myself on the school payroll for next sem :-D I will be TA-ing for OOAD. In case ur don't know, TA is teaching assistant whereby u assist prof and instructor during lesson. I was telling my prof that i am might not be competent enough and blah blah blah when i so-called apply. He waited a week b4 replying me and he said it's abt soft skills as well and my A grade is good enough. So i said okay I'll apply and see how it goes on from here. The next thing i knew, i am chosen already. It's my honor to be part of this possibly-wonderful experience :-D Will be looking forward to it.

So I went to receive my WPL winners medal @ JBS on fri. The rain absolutely spoil all my plan as i wanted to take photo and stuff but 'cos of rain didn't take any photo in the end. Besides, is there even a presentation? Those there would get the drift... Sigh... Bernard's family was there ya know so what would they think after seeing how it's planned? But think it's 'cos of the rain. But I'll be honest; i can't take my eyes off it that day. I kinda calm down the next day but straight after I receive it i can't help but keep looking at it. I still can't believe i would be part of this wonderful team and season. Must thank Jill 'cos if she never cheer me up when i feel down after the police game and then she and gina encourage me so much against NYP i might not be that happy. But ya... Congrats to everyone. Personal congrats goes out to Nuriah and Izah for being top scorers.

But Khairul Amri didn't score that day :-( went close a few times and part of some nice moves by Tampines but not enough to add more reasons to celebrate on that day :-(

I managed to kick soccer balls for the first time since that fateful friday. Was playing at SAS field (which is actually for rugby) but artifical turf so was nice. Weather was kinda hot. Was kicking with guys so really learn about being calm. It's not as though i can't play just that i end up releasing the ball too early or late or show some poor moments as i just didn't do what i would usually do. Was kinda having problem coping at the start but i got into the tempo soon even though it's still hard. But i realise i can't head even though their ball was coming at faster pace so its harder :-( Was playing striker / wingers so a lot of those nice long high balls coming to me but everytime i chicken out of the header and only control with my leg. Then there's kinda some chance to head at set pieces too which i chicken out. Sigh... I think i must practice header in my break during training so that i won't chicken out of it anymore. But glad i did have some good patches of form today as i never kick a ball for quite a bit now even though i've been gymming/jogging.

I HATE SCHOOL!!!

This is not the first nor the the only time i am saying this but I HATE SCHOOL!!! Everything abt sch is so hectic, crazy, tedious, stressful that you just wanna quit school, get away from the freaking academic system and have a good laugh at everyone who's still staying there. When will SMU ever get it that student do still need a life and enjoy while living it as well instead of worrying about project/stuff even while enjoying that bit of life. Hey! Maybe its a good idea not to be held to ransom by the crazy school system anymore. So don't be surprise if i annouce that i've quit school.

Anyway, i'm free 'cos i've just reach home and then now waiting for the environment to be quieter before studying for SE mid-term(ya... mid-term when it's around 3/4 term already... stupid right?)tmr. Hopefully i can get full marks for it as i really need it to bounce back. But maybe after publishing i'll do some work first b4 studying.

So ya... After not exercising a single bit since pesta sukan except that fateful friday, i'm back with my own training regime. Hit the school gym last thur after not going there for a long long time already. Felt relief i didn't lose too much strength/treadmill distance; still about the same as last time. And then i saw this guys that i swear looks like fernando torres :-D Even though i would exchange it for Ruud any time, it's still nice thinking you're close to a huge star. But got me so distracted.... hahaha. But bad part is my groin / inner thigh was so pain after that and haven't recover since.

Was supposed to join SMUWS mates for another gym session too but was too busy with CAT project so can't leave. Sigh... I feel so bad that everytime they have to be sacrificed but as like i say b4, i would not be able to play soccer if not for my studies so i better at the very least make sure it's on track. But will join them for a while this fri b4 leaving for prize presentaion.

Then went jogging with Sengkang mates too which just a simple short session to get things a bit rolling. The funny thing is everyone end up with cramp/strain/whatever in the groin or inner thigh. After we ran a few rounds around the track, we did some dynamic stuff and then sit down to do strength stuff. Everyone immediately felt cramp/strain/whatever at groin or inner thigh. Really every single one; even halu who's suppose to be fit as she surely still exercise. Guess its 'cos we're quite warm up then suddenly stopped moving. And it didn't help i kinda injure it already. So ya, now i am walking with some awkardness due to my groin / inner thigh.

Anyway, WPL prize presentation is this fri. I missed the chance to do sth i really feel like doing after pesta sukan which i will never ever have a chance to do so already. Sigh... I'll forever live with this regret. Think only 1 person who i told on MSN knows what i'm talking about. So even though i will be joyful and looking forward to receiving the prize, i will still look back at what i could've/should've done then. And i might be taking lots of photos :-D It's a real blessing from God to be part of this amazing season and team and i really don't know how long i'll still be in there so i'll really cherish any moment.

After the Bernard incident, i really feel i shouldn't be so indecisive anymore. I must come out of my protective shell and do what i so wanna do inside me. I feel if we really wanna do sth e.g. repair my relationship with Bernard, i really should take action and do it instead of just thinking okay i shall do it but then never do it then live with this regret forever. I've live it out last sun and i thank God he helped me to make that action kinda positive. At the very least, i'll feel i've tried even if it didn't turn out well and things got worst instead then. So thank Bernard that he's still giving my life lessons. It's one of my weakest aspect of me so i'll learn... So to all readers, do not put yourself in situation whereby u'll one day look back in regret. A lot of ppl already had regrets because of Bernard's incident.

My 2 cents worth. Will try to blog about more life lesson or just simply other stuff as this blog is looking like my diary of soccer memories.